Episode Transcript
[00:00:15] Hey, everyone. I'm Brian, and this is Snorkeling with Narwhals. And it is the first episode of the new era. The new era that started maybe three months ago. So what will I be talking about?
[00:00:26] I guess just what's been going on in my life. And these are probably gonna be short episodes, like five to 10 minutes. So. I have found myself recently unemployed. I won't get into why or anything. It's just I'm looking for a new job, so I've been putting in applications, doing a couple interviews, doing unemployment, stuff like that. I've had Catdog on in the background while I search for jobs sometimes. That's pretty fun.
[00:00:50] It's an easy show to binge, by the way. I'm almost done with it.
[00:00:55] Really fun things to start the new year with. For the record, unemployment is really confusing.
[00:01:01] And so now, since I have some time off, I need to work on some skills or I want to work on some skills. I want to learn how to shoot and work with a video. That's always been something I've lacked. Like in college, I focused mostly on radio, so it's kind of a blind spot for me.
[00:01:16] I can work with audio like a pro, like, literally, because that's. That was my job. But I don't want to be limited by just audio. I also want to relearn Spanish. I used to be really good at it, and it's been a long time since I was really good at it. Maybe do a little screenwriting writing, at least for. For sure. And I want a podcast. So I have this podcast, which I guess I'll do whenever I feel like it. If you listen to my intro pod from a few months ago, I don't have much of a plan right now with it. I. I do have another project in the works, but I'll talk about that once it's been recorded. For fun. I've been cataloging my movie collection by genre and series. I know that doesn't sound fun probably to most people, but I, you know, I kind of like it. I have a huge collection of movies, digital movies, and I figure this will help me when. I'm not sure what kind of movie I want to watch, but I need to start watching through it more because it's just getting bigger. I also have to stop buying things, but I also want to go to the movies more. Maybe that sounds irresponsible considering I don't have a job. I don't know. But I feel like I can look for jobs and go to the Movies doesn't have to be one or the other. I started with Sonic 3, which was really good. I guess we've gotten to the portion where I just tell you about the media that I've been consuming. But I've been also watching the Pit. If you haven't heard of the Pit, it's a medical drama starring Noah Wylie on Max. It's made by some of the people who made er, AKA the greatest drama of all time. And it's got great potential. The first two episodes were awesome and the third was good. Fourth one was better than the third, but each episode is one hour of the same shift, so it's kind of like 24. That's kind of cool. So you'll have storylines that start in one episode and then keep going on. That sounds obvious, but, like, some stories will barely get attention at first and then grow in later episodes or go in the background for a bit. And it's on Max, which is hbo. So some of the medical gore is just like. They've kept it pretty tame. But like in the first episode, they. They. They have someone's leg that has been de gloved. And I'm like, oh. By de gloved they mean, like, all the skin is gone and it's disgusting to look at.
[00:03:23] And it uses the Max rating pretty well, like hard swearing when it's applicable. One guy running. One guy running by with his butt out. Nothing super excessive besides the dude with his penis out who pees on a doctor.
[00:03:38] So moving on. Need to find a new book to read. The best thing I read last year was Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir, so maybe something along those lines. Like sci fi. Like the Martian. I only read three books really last year, but that's more than I usually read. So, you know, that's pretty good. I need to find new music to listen to. I get in these ruts like everyone does, where I just listen to the same songs and artists over and over. Not like compulsively, but it's just comfortable. But I need to branch out. There's been a lot of 21 pilots lately. I played the Last of Us, part one for PlayStation 5. It was really good. Solid story. Insanely violent, though. Like, I've played shooter games before, but this was brutal. The ending is particularly disturbing. Like, in a good way, though. Like, it was a great ending. The LA Rams, for those who know me, you know, I love the Rams. They made the playoffs. They had started 1, 4, finished the season 10 and 7, which was awesome. Did not see that coming. They beat the Vikings in the wild card round. Sorry, Brett, but, you know, got bragging rights on that one. Lost to the Eagles in the divisional round. Pretty good game. Could have won at the end. Didn't happen.
[00:04:46] Great season, though. So now I have to deal with a Chiefs, Eagles, super bowl, which is the most boring matchup that could have possibly happened.
[00:04:54] And then more seriously, I'm still working on the ocd. It's been pretty tough. For those who don't know, I deal with contamination, ocd, like germs.
[00:05:05] The pandemic was really hard on me with that, but I've been a lot better the past couple years. It still pops up, but it's so much better than before.
[00:05:14] But the other thing I deal with is called scrupulosity. It's religious ocd. And this one really sucks. For me, it shows up as needing to pray right the right way. I need to make sure I'm right with God, whatever that means.
[00:05:29] And that sounds admirable, but it is very bad for me. It goes past just wanting to do the right thing. I get caught in these sleeps where I have to try to pray again. So I do it right. Or, like, I have to figure out before I start what the right way to do it is.
[00:05:43] I have to make sure the things I'm doing are right. And I keep using the word right, but that's kind of like, you know, the important thing here is that everything has to be just right. Even though, you know, praying you're not perfect and God knows that and don't have to try so hard. But when you get caught in this, like, it can feel so important that that doesn't matter. It's hard to explain, but I've been dealing with it for, like, 20 years. I never knew it was OCD until a couple years ago, and my friend Evan showed me a link about scrupulosity. I'm like, this is me. So, for example, I don't know if this podcast is right. I don't know if it's the right thing for me to be doing, if I planned it right or if I'm doing it right. It feels kind of wrong, like it's not what God wants me to do. Should I have re edited this script? Yes, this is a script. I'm not just talking off the top of my head and recorded it again because the audio wasn't great the first time. So that's some of the stuff. It's also not fun when you're not exactly sure where you want your relationship with God to be, because Then the target is kind of moving, you know, not fun. But, yeah, that's me in a nutshell. Need to find a job which has kind of altered my plans for 2025, which, you know, great, great year, great start to the year. That balance of, you know, I need to stay informed with the news, but I also don't want to lose my mind, as many memes have attested to. There was one in particular that I thought of that made me think of that. But, yeah, I'm trying. But if anyone knows of anyone hiring, I'm available. It's time to sell myself. I am specialized in audio production, but I'm open to most types of communication jobs. But maybe losing the job was kind of good in a way. Mentally, I was in a rut, and this can help me break out of it. I already missed out on getting engaged to Zendaya. Thanks, Tom Holland. So I'll have to find some other way to break out of my rut. Maybe trying to meet Florence Pugh more realistically finding a job. But I'm working on it. I'll trip a few times and I have tripped a few times, but I think that I will land on my feet eventually. And that line, if you couldn't tell, was kind of scripted. Anyway, I'm Brian, and I don't know when I'll be back with another episode, but this is snorkeling with narwhals.
